Why?

I'm sure some of you out there are wondering why I'm posting about the current situation. Particularly since it's a painful and ugly situation. This blog has become a sort of release for me. I've never been able to keep a diary or journal before, but now that I am I want to keep it going. It's had a positive influence on my life. It's helped me sort out things.

But strangers are reading this.. Yes, I know. It's easier to tell things we'd normally keep hidden to strangers though, isn't it? And, yes, I have a few friends who read this, but they'd hear about it anyway and in probably more gruesome detail and for longer periods of time. (Pity my friends.) I may like keeping an air of mystery, but I've also never felt terribly secretive. Yes, I keep things private. I enjoy my privacy. But maybe talking about this here might not only help me sort out my feelings, it might help someone else going through something similar. Also, as weird as this may sound, I want to keep a record of this time. I want to be able to look back and say "We survived this. We made it through that."